down in the dumps

Really, it doesn't matter anymore... nor does the fact that my being a teacher is not going to be a lifelong career for me. These days all a teacher can do is teach-if at all- because most of the time you're trying to keep your class under control-luckily mine is pretty good. Forget about discipline or making a judgement on your own of any kind... parents go to the principal and then you are told that what judgements you made were the wrong ones and trusting what kids say is out of the question because they lie to your face and then tell the principal another story entirely.
Monday I'm going in to talk to the principal after writting a letter beforehand about my allegedly calling a boy a cheater--which in the end his mother got his way and was moved from my class-- and my not reporting an incident right away in which I told by the boys the whole thing was an accident but now I'm wrong there too-because the parents and the boy went to the principal.

I thought I wanted this again... what the hell was I thinking...
My judgements about a lot of things are FUBAB these days!

I don't know how

I don't know how to be supportive....I just don't understand. Why?

All Around me

All around me babies are being born and tales of mommyhood are being told...it doesn't make my desire to be a mom any less desireable...in fact I think I should stop reading blogs all together, it's feels like I do when I go to one baby shower after another when it's not for me. When all the people there ask, "So when do you think it'll be your turn?" I hate this! I know I'm just being whinny and it probably has something to do with the fact that I'm sick and knowing that my youngest sister-in-law will most likely be a mom again before me.
I think now is the time to end this pitty party blog and go find a quite place to cry.

ta ta for now

What's happened since

Since my last entry, I've gotten the routine down and things are running more smoothly. I really love teaching fifth grade. My 31st birthday has come and gone with no major catastrophes. A couple of my students even gave me birthday gifts. I got lotion from Lorena, foamy soap from Riley, a small teddy bear from Christina, and a TY beanie bear and my favorite candy bar from Teyona. I have a really awesome class.
My dad brought me balloons and diet pepsi to school- my mom sent me flowers... I have awesome parents. Corby made me dinner after I got home from my meeting at the school district offices. Thanks honey, Love ya. I feel very spoiled!

Class is now in session

Hey ya'll, So my first week felt like it did the first year I began teaching or the first week of junior high would be more accurate--I felt like I knew nothing and that I was lost most of the time. The first two days I didn't know where things were that my students kept asking for, like the lunch basket to put their lunches in until it was time to eat. I had no idea where the interconnections closet was or the YPP lab, or even the P.E. closet!

I took my students out an hour early for recess on tuesday, I looked at my clock wrong and thought that it was 2:35, when in actuality it was 1:35! I just saw the hand on the 7 and assumed it was time to go...duh! All week from then on when I said it was time for recess when the bells would ring they would ask, "Are you sure?" Teaching math thus far hasn't been that difficult, due to the fact that my students are needing 3rd grade math review, like times tables, place value and 3 to 4 digit addition.

I still don't have an email address, so don't write please. I was just recognized as working at Robert Frost. For those of us that are teachers will are reading this you will understand, but for the others of you reading this just go with it... I didn't have a class assigned to me and I can't get my PG&E goals set online, because apparently there is two of me in the district, one that's still attached to Rolling Meadows and the other Adrianne Merchant is just there, not attached to anything. GRRRR!

My students are fun though--There's this kid Felisi(who is Samoan/Tongan), he's a big kid anyway the other day the bell rand to go home and he just kind of hung around the door- waiting for me I guess. He left when this fourth grade teacher next door teased him and said, " You know Felisi she's married."

It was quite a week

Stay tuned for pictures of my students

Mrs. Merchant

getting back to work has been quite an adventure. I'd almost forgotten what it was like to work all day and stay for some event in the evening like Back to School night and then come back the next day. Ugh!
I can't believe how fast the summer has gone by and tomorrow is the First day of school.
I'm excited but nervous too. Stay tuned to further posts about my first week back.

My Week's Adventures

My week in review--nothing took place much, Monday or Tuesday, but from Wednesday to Today(Saturday Aug.1) It's been a crazy one! Wednesday I had the privilege of babysitting my youngest nephew, Nate--What a cutie! He and I got along great! He and Lucy hit it off and he just wanted to explore after he woke up from a nap. Funny thing was, when Nate slept so did Lucy! I wish I had taken a picture.
Then on Thursday my parents and my brother Jake took off for a 4 wheeling weekend. I was asked to feed the fish and dog and water the plants. Simple enough right? Haha... Friday morning I come over to feed Willow and found that a tree limb, not a little one mind you...a good sized tree limb has broken off the tree and is hanging down.
Willow(the family dog) usually goes for a swim in the cannal behind my mom and dad's house, so Friday we brought Lucy over to go with her, wear out both dogs at the same time. I took Willow, boy did I make the wrong choice, she pulled me around the block enough to send my flip flops flying literally.
Then today, oh today... It's only 9:53 a.m. and already I'm ready to go back to bed. Decided to take Willow swimming by herself earlier...in theory good plan...in reality, not so much! There was another woman and her dog walking on the canal this morning...which was okay because Willow kept on swimming without even paying attention. However, the second time the woman passed with her dog, Willow lunges out of the water and goes after this dog! Both the woman and I tried to stop it, she helped me get Willow's collar while she was trying to shield her dog! Luckily both dogs are fine and no blood seems to have been shed.
When my parents get home tomorrow afternoon what am I suppose to say, "the fish are still living, you're plants are fine, your tree is dead and your dog caused a fight on the canal, but overall, everything went fine!"
Oh Boy! I really hope that between the remainder of today and through tomorrow morning that all goes well without much more drama.