Thanksgiving

For the first time that I can remember anyway, my parents set their table for three because Erin and her family and myself took our families away to our In-laws for Thanksgiving.  As I was leaving I looked back and thought just how odd it was to see the good china set out for three.   But my mom cooked because she wanted her own leftovers.  We had a good time at Grandma Alaine's though, Carson enjoyed playing with cousins he doesn't get to see often, but the funniest thing about the whole night was the fact that he waited for Shaylyn and Tanis to get there- but had missed his nap and hadn't felt good that week and finally about the time Grandma Kehl was getting ready to go, he said , "Dad I'm tired.  So we go him in the car and turned to ask him if he had had fun and there was no sound- he'd fallen sound asleep just as Tanis and Shaylyn arrived!   

He slept the remainder of the night!

"Cheers To you my sleepy little boy!"

A world of Judgemental people

On November 1st the world lost a beautiful person whom I didn't even know, but I felt like I understood.  Brittany Maynard was a woman who was suffering from a brain tumor stage 4 brain cancer.  After hearing from the doctor in April that there was no more they could do for her, she wanted a chance at Death with Dignity.  The world sees it as suicide, but after suffering agonizing seizures where when she came to she couldn't recognize her surroundings nor remember her husband's name I felt for her and understood.
During the last Four years I've felt that way every time I have a seizure, the longer it takes to come out of one, when I can't remember things- I understand how she could want to end it all.  I don't see it as suicide, I see it as ending the pain.  That may sound selfish, but when you've taken every medication and nothing works and you are at the end except for surgery, a surgery that you don't know  will work at all.

There are a lot of judgmental people in the world, who until you are in the situation really have no reason to be saying "she killed herself, plain and simple." Because nothing is simple when you are dying.