Another day of Elf Ben's Antic's

On The  Wednesday 17th, Elf was found with expert snowman Chili making their own snowman

and Today Thursday Dec. 18th, Ben was found "Gone fishin'" with a pretzel fishing rod and red and green Swedish fish

 

And off we go again

On Thursday the 11th Elf Ben Overtook Carson's fort with a friend

"Keep out, Snowmen and Elves only! and good little boys!

On Friday the 12th, he Climbed a Christmas tree in Carson's room and put an angel on top

On Saturday The 13th, we were afraid Ben wasn't going to come down!

On Sunday The 14th, we discovered Ben here with a note that read, " squeaky clean complete with a q-tip snowflake

Then on Monday the 15th we discovered, Ben on a lap tap!

And today the 16th we discovered this, Ben had spent time helping building a home 

Here we go again...

Today our Elf made it upstairs... and found his way into my mom's ornaments box....
He seems right at home-

Catching up- Here's Ben's Adventures the last few days

For those of who read and care of the adventures of the our family Elf...
Here is what he has been up to the last few days...

On Friday, Carson Found him reading one of his favorite books in a rocking chair.  Who knew They had the same taste in reading material

 Then on Saturday he found him, Rocking out with our Santa

Then on Sunday, he was spotted with some Moose again

On Monday, Ben Moonlighted as an EMT, with the help of Nurse Hallie From Doc McStuffins, which is a good thing- because this mama dropped a glass, stepped in it and needed help from several other elves in the house.  Thanks Dad for pulling the glass out of my foot and thanks Honey for getting the necessary tools to clean up the mess!

 

And today, Ben is playing Connect4Launcher with Lambie

the Story Continues

Today Carson Found our Elf in the hallway... Ben had taken his Big Rig and used it to transport a herd of mommy's favorite thing.... Moose...

Elf on the Shelf Day 3

Today Our Elf was found doing something a little more traditional- he was found this morning behind Carson's toy piano playing Christmas Songs.  Way to go Ben!  My Piano teacher gave up on me!

Favorite things

 One of my favorite things about December is Elf on the shelf--

Yesterday our Elf Ben managed to make his appearance even though I was very sick...

He appeared on my windowsill with a message for Carson


"HI Carson- I'm Back from the North pole, I hope you have been good this year.
                                                                                                Your Elf , Ben"






DAY 2;  And today there an Elf convention in town where all our elves got together

It was a big success!  Pappy, Ben and Fries really enjoyed themselves!

Thanksgiving

For the first time that I can remember anyway, my parents set their table for three because Erin and her family and myself took our families away to our In-laws for Thanksgiving.  As I was leaving I looked back and thought just how odd it was to see the good china set out for three.   But my mom cooked because she wanted her own leftovers.  We had a good time at Grandma Alaine's though, Carson enjoyed playing with cousins he doesn't get to see often, but the funniest thing about the whole night was the fact that he waited for Shaylyn and Tanis to get there- but had missed his nap and hadn't felt good that week and finally about the time Grandma Kehl was getting ready to go, he said , "Dad I'm tired.  So we go him in the car and turned to ask him if he had had fun and there was no sound- he'd fallen sound asleep just as Tanis and Shaylyn arrived!   

He slept the remainder of the night!

"Cheers To you my sleepy little boy!"

A world of Judgemental people

On November 1st the world lost a beautiful person whom I didn't even know, but I felt like I understood.  Brittany Maynard was a woman who was suffering from a brain tumor stage 4 brain cancer.  After hearing from the doctor in April that there was no more they could do for her, she wanted a chance at Death with Dignity.  The world sees it as suicide, but after suffering agonizing seizures where when she came to she couldn't recognize her surroundings nor remember her husband's name I felt for her and understood.
During the last Four years I've felt that way every time I have a seizure, the longer it takes to come out of one, when I can't remember things- I understand how she could want to end it all.  I don't see it as suicide, I see it as ending the pain.  That may sound selfish, but when you've taken every medication and nothing works and you are at the end except for surgery, a surgery that you don't know  will work at all.

There are a lot of judgmental people in the world, who until you are in the situation really have no reason to be saying "she killed herself, plain and simple." Because nothing is simple when you are dying.

October Festivities

As we do every October, we go to a local pumpkin patch to pick pumpkins to decorate the front porch, but the most exciting thing was picking from the ones the grew out back and painting them.


This is the nicer pumpkin inspired by his cousin's TMNT's Pumpkin

Mr. Bones waving hello, needs a rod to help him stand straight

  The paint we started to use didn't work well as Carson soon found out. 


The proud moment when Lil man found just the right punkin

Not so nice looking pumkin

 Our outside front flowerbeds

Pumpkin witch

Front Porch

"friendly" spiders 

 

The End of an Era

It being my birthday today I needed to go and get my license renewed, even though I've not driven since my son was born, which is almost 4 years ago now.  So yesterday my dad took me to the DMV out in Draper and we tried to get it renewed.  I knew that it might be possible that they might not renew it, and that's exactly what they did as soon as they saw my doctor's recommendation- I'm a category 8 which means I'm under constant doctor care because I haven't gone the state required 90 days without a seizure.  I can't even go a week, heck a day without one these days!  So the guy I was talking to was nice though but said the dreaded words, "You can always apply for a state ID, you can use it in the airport when you fly, the only thing you can't do is drive with it." That's what I had to do-- bury my hurt feelings and go apply for a state ID.  
I've always felt independent, like I could take care of myself- not anymore- I feel like I burden now more then ever.  When I had a drivers license in my wallet I felt there was hope, that someday I would get better, but I am beginning to realize just how different my life is and what if my life only gets worse?  
At the last Dr. appointment my doctor asked how many seizures I've had in three months, in just a month I can have 100 seizures no joke.  So to even count in three months time is ridiculous- so she suggested making preparations for brain surgery!  But the side effects and time in the hospital and what if it doesn't work and what if I wake up and don't know who my family is?  That scares me, but so does living like this too because I am a burden.
This is the first Birthday where I don't feel like I happy Mama!                

 

Summer flying away

With summer flying away and everyone else's kids going back to school I felt that I really had nothing to write about, but then my MIL challenged the family to think about what qualities we liked about someone and why.  I really didn't know what to do at first, but then I thought and I came to the conclusion that it was right in front of my face all the time.
My Lil Man is not only my miracle baby, but he is my big helper and dare I say Savior. 
We not only make muffins together but he has saved my life more than once when I've fallen because of a seizure... without thinking when we are home if I happen to have a seizure he runs to get the magnet and uses it to help me and then calls his grandpa(Papa).  He is so Brave at the age of three he doesn't think he just does to help his mom. 

I lucked out when it came to the kid department, I think God knew I needed a smart cookie to help me right now. I love you Carson William, the Brave.

Two months between posts...

Forgive me... but a lot happened since my last post... Erin went into Labor 21 days Early and set our world spinning.... I wouldn't trade meeting Wyatt but, Poor Erin went to a Doctor's appointment one day and then the next night she was dropping her boys off at my parents house!

Here are some recent pictures of the boys

Where did my baby go?

L to R- Zayne, Carson, Xavier(down front, new baby Wyatt)

" Fruit Snacks"
We couldn't get Zayne to hold still without the fruit snacks

 

 



 

These two months have been hell excuse me for using that word but, it describes my life health wise.  If it weren't for my mom and my sister and the rest of my family, I wouldn't be sitting here writing this blog.  My seizures have been out of control, some have lasted as long as  10-15 minutes.... but Erin I promise... I will make it to our 40th birthday still kickin'. I promise!



potty training adventure

So months ago we bought our lil' man underoos, but he really didn't seem interested in potty training, other than taking off his diaper and making a royal mess...so we let the issue go.  Sine then his cousin has gotten potty trained and he tells us he needs to go potty, and went with his cousins while on vacation- even though he was still wearing a diaper.
So over conference weekend we went and bought him more underwear of his choosing and made him a chart,- that first day I thought I was going to loose my mind.  The second day went better thanks to my shout to my friends on facebook. The third day was amazing, we went to the store and he made it from the garden center inside.
The fourth day he fought me and wouldn't go at all and then locked himself in his room and we weren't able to get him out.  We finally had to coax him out when he woke up.
Now Today, day 5
two accidents and then he disappears, so I'm thinking "oh now we have a third", and as I start to go looking for him I hear the toliet flush and a triumphant smile on Carson's face.  He had done it for the first time by himself!

I have thought all week that this is a test is who is more patient, but to see that joy on his face was so worth all the frustration.

Disneyland Trip 2014

March has been circled on our calendar for about a year our so now... Our trip to Disneyland with the cousins and aunts and uncles and grandma Alaine and Grandpa Lance.  The weather was upper 70's and short weather, whereas leaving here it was in the 50's.  Aunt Kami was awesome by being our chauffeur to and from the airport! 

Here are some pictures of our trip.... because that's what blogs are for right?

goofy and Carson

The cousins

Firefighters Carson and Makayla in Toontown

"Mr. Shades"- waiting in line for Toy story Midway Games

On the tea cups

 Carson and Corby on "Toady" Just outside of Mr. Toad's Wild Ride

Loved listening to Dapper Dans while at lunch on Thursday

The Haunted Mansion- didn't cry!

Francis's Ladybug  Boogie- in a Bug's Land 

Photo with Pooh

Photo with Tigger

Mike and Sulley to the Rescue- Monster's Inc. Ride in California Adventure

World of Color

world of Color-Olaf

I must confess- I was at this show and I did try to take these  world of color pictures with my camera, but they turned out like crap- so I looked up the world of color show online and found the same pictures so I could share my memories with you and not be embarrassed! please don't judge me!